Arbitrariness

its been long

2010-06-29T10:36:00.000-07:00

Wow heres something new, i.... am... legend! im now at ash's party and ya promised myself not to drink anymore but ya... what to do? life.... sometimes u cant decide.u jsut have to go. hhahah trying to control myself right now. tired? nah.. but kinda sleepy. ill stay awake. thinking whether going to school tomorrow is essential. stoinky stoink. wake up thumb. eyelids are heavy but no... not gonna see the land of slumber yet. maybe im not gonna go school tomorrow. well, many reasons. theres this beautiful girl here. hahaha k stop

power of the mind

2010-01-07T19:19:00.001-08:00

If u feel tired while running, do think anything about the word tired. Just go run. I wish i could all the way. all the way.

If u feel pain, just think of the happy things u have in ur life. For me, right now. i just can’t carry the pain. its just to painful. I could just think of other things… but i just can’t. everything that i have done is lost. My class was talking about what if everything happening to you right now is a dream. how i wish this right now is a nightmare. Wake up! i need to wake up! I can’t be living this way man. Somebody please just pinch me to wake me up. No No, please kill me.

HOPE.its the only word in my mind right now. i hope that all this is just not true. …………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………

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carelessnesstessnessary

2009-12-29T13:15:00.000-08:00

I was a wonderful night at Johor.. Sleepover at my friends house..
After accompanying him go for a traditional massage, we went over to his place
I found out the houses there are quite affordable. Imagine two storey terrace for the cost of
a normal 4 room flat in Singapore. I think I want to buy a house there. Its a new place.
The houses was new a it looks so Singapore-ish. haha. Securities taking care of the neighborhood.
Just the kind of house I want where security, view, and comfort. However, its quite for from
shops.
We played command and conquer at his house. Yes it was fun. After playing the game we ate
some instant noodles. Usually after eating I would go for a smoke. Unfortunately, I found out
I lost the most sentimental thing to me right now. It was the lighter that I was given. *sigh*
Nothing can replace that lighter. I felt like I just ripped out my own heart. At that point of time I thought of tracing back where I have gone to that night, but it was late and Johor is not like Singapore.
If I were to be in Singapore, I would surely, by hook or by crook, go find that lighter . I wish I could go back in time and not lose that lighter. Again i *sigh*.
WASTED WASTED WASTED! Argh!

Next day,
I found out my chain for my bike was lose and it was at the point where it can drop out anytime.
We then got ourselves ready to go back to Singapore. We went to had our breakfast first before going to a bike workshop. So we went to this Malay stall. the way they serve the food was like catering kind of way.
The place the cooked dishes at the middle of the shop and as we got into the shop, we placed an order of our drinks and we went straight to take the rice. After taking the rice, we are suppose to choose the dishes... *laugh* FLIES were everywhere! And I was like... ok, lets eat. *laugh*
FLIES FLIES FLIES.... they were so fat! AS I swallow the food, I kept on thinking how flies grow *chuckles* I felt like I'm eating chunks of maggots even when I know that I'm eating the food. However, it was nice. COME TRY! Its delicious!

hmm

2009-12-10T03:43:00.001-08:00

I swear i love the way she laugh.. the way she bites her own lips… and don’t get me started about her eyes! i mean.. it the most wonderful thing! it really2 brightens up my day. haha. RANDOM

What have i done man...

2009-12-07T11:04:00.001-08:00

I shouldn't have come along if it ended this way..

It was a wonderful day!

2009-12-02T22:48:00.001-08:00

People say that life is too short to sad. To me, in life if you don’t feel sad. Its boring. There are many many feelings that can be felt. Happy is good but No such thing as I’m happy always. So, its not wrong if you’re sad in life. But is not good to be sad all the time. OK basically i think we should stick to one feeling or emotion all the time.
However, there is this feeling inside of me. I’m not sure what is this feeling. But every time I’m around this certain someone, every time i think of this certain someone, I feel… I feel… Completed. Its really2 great to have this feeling. Whenever I’m around of this certain someone , my hand is numb. i hard trouble breathing. But it feels great.My heart beat just gets faster and faster. How I love this feeling.

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2009-11-27T15:50:00.001-08:00

I miss her. i made a promise to her ill study hard. but i have not been doing it. i just wish she was here. to wake me up to school.. the cook me food…. to hug and kiss me right before i leave the house. i remember the last school result i showed her was my preliminary results and the grades was terrible. i really2 regretted i didn’t do well there. i miss her smile. i just wish she was here to sit beside me. eat with me. scold me. haiz… but what to do. moving on is a good thing. but i think I've moved on without fulfilling my promise to her. i miss my mother.

Confirmed

2009-11-24T13:08:00.001-08:00

It is for sure that I’ll be departing from Singapore by Thursday noon. I’ll be taking the bus from Golden mile junction. I guess i can’t go for the Thursday class. I just hope that I’m going to find the fun there. Things that I should bring:-

Passport
My Cell phone
My digital camera

Yes without my cell phone, there will be no music. No music means BOREDOM. Without my digital camera, I got nothing to do there. This time I’ll try sharing my time there through the pictures. I’ll be back by Sunday and i got the feeling that my sister is coming to Singapore to with me. Thus, I can’t go out that day or any other day/night. She’ll be here for the holidays. She is a teacher there. When the school is having a holiday, she’ll be having one too. That is one of the reason why I don’t like holidays. When holidays comes, she going to ask me to go there.*sigh*

2012

There are rumors that the world will be facing tragedy during that year. Some says the worlds going to end. Some say not. It is said that it got something to do about the Sun.

For me, I think there is no point being scared about this. We just have to continue life as it is. I mean, what if it doesn’t happen. You’ll be wasting 2 years being scared and not enjoying your life. If its time for us to die, then die. *laugh* OR if you really really believe that the event is going to happen and you know that you have not fulfill whatever you want to do in life, then try fulfilling it. To me, the questions of death is all in the hands of god.

Random Question: Do you think that our life is being control?

Departing Day> Thursday

2009-11-23T08:05:00.000-08:00

This Thursday I'm going to KL. My brother is getting engage in Kedah. I've been there and the place is really really rural. I can smell it in the air. Everything is so unpolluted by carbon monoxide. Fresh air and mosquitoes for you.
The Problem is, buying the tickets. I really need to find the time and money to buy the tickets at Golden mile junction. Which is at Beach road area. I need to depart from Singapore by 6 plus but I had already put my working schedule on that day. *laugh* Now I need to find replacements. *laugh out loud* My sister is coming back to Singapore with me on Sunday and she's gonna ask my to give her a ride from Haig Road to Woodlands. I can survive that. But I'm not sure whether my bike can. *chuckles*

Just now I had a meeting in school about RPresenting. It a dance competition. Hip Hop IG,Style Groovas Crew, is organizing it. I was chosen to be the leader in the Marketing section. I don't mind being in the marketing section its just the word "leader" that makes me..... "huh?". I mean, me? leader? *chuckles* I'll try. Nothing is impossible. Besides, what so hard about being a leader? I just need to guide them. Let's do it!

Its not enough!

2009-11-12T14:43:00.001-08:00

I really really need to save more. The main question here, How?Work? Working after school is really really tiring. I really need to cut down on my expenditure. I know i really not good money. I tend to spend spend spend. However, I really can’t see on what I spending on. All I can remember is spending my money on bike, food, cigarettes. Well, I can’t cut down on food. I need to eat more not eat less. I mean, look at me. *laugh* Cut down on my cigarettes? Already did. Cut more? OK……. I’ll try. Cut down on my bike stuff? Nahhhh…. If I were to cut down on my bike stuff expenditure, my bike can’t move.

Before I got myself a bike, my pocket money was $a/month. After getting myself a bike, My pocket money was cut down to $(a-50)/month. That is why I need to work. But My siblings just don’t allow me to work. How am I going to maintain bike if cannot work? I mean, I can’t even work on the weekends? Its just ridiculous.

“ZzZzZzZzZ”

2009-11-10T22:53:00.000-08:00

I wonder what’s going to happen if i were to tell them of how I am doing in school right now. Well, to me, everything doesn’t seem right. I also wonder what am I going to be when I finish my studies and my National Service. People say its hard for me to get into Airforce. Besides, PES A and PES B? *chuckles* It possible! But I need to train a lot. I think I need a training buddy. And I need time. Time, I need to change that word, cause all I have is time. Well, after school that is. However, I need to concentrate other things too. Like for example, I need to polish up my dance. I need to study and do a lot more revisions to keep me prepare for my UTs. I need to work for my extra pocket money. I need to think about saving up my money so i can save up in my bank. I need to save up some money to meet my wants too.

WANTS:-

- New jacket(Lost my old one)

-New Tops

-New Bottoms

-Water heater

-Bike accessories

-Vacuum Cleaner

-New shades

-New slippers

-New raincoat

-New Paintwork for my bike

-New Helmet

You don’t want to know how much I think to think about money. Every time I close my eyes, i kept on thinking about want I need to do and what I want. Well, not so much on the wants though.

Here’s something random!

ROJAK!… OK now I’m hungry! Now I’m wondering what I’m going to eat right now. Speaking of wondering, I also wonder what I’m going to wear for tonight’s MUSE! I Lost one ticket! Yay!!! Don’t tell me I’m going Alone!!!! YAY!!!

Beautiful

2009-10-29T13:34:00.000-07:00

The sad but fun tragedy of Eng Neo trip

Once again, it needs to be towed away. Well, at least we had some kind of adventure. Eng Neo cemetery was spooky. However its a place where u shouldn't your bring your bike along. One car and two bikes. The silent night in the cemetery was invaded with motorcycle madness. Our motorcycles was creating too much noise for the spirits to sleep at night. Well i feel sorry for them cause if it were to be me at home sleeping and random people just came and wake me up with their bikes, i would surely curse them or worse i would just kill them.

PS:In one night, two Panda down.

New way for the so called "Mat rep or Minah rep"s to talk.

I flew to the moon!... fake!
I wonder whats the difference between NOT and FAKE. Maybe its in the trend. maybe they think its funny. However, Im in no place to disagree with this new way to say NOT. Its up to each and everyone's creative mind to mingle around with words. Keep it up!
P.S:Nice try; Try harder!

New Panda design!

Finally, we mange to find the time to make our draft design of our group Panda. To all Pandas who manage to read this Blog. If u still consider yourself Panda, please tell us. We highly recommend you guys to paste the sticker on your helmets. :D I mean what the point of being stagnant. We call ourselves panda but we're not representing.

P.S: Kite semue group riding je..Outing same same.. Lets try to bond now. Soon aku rase ade member baru tau. Aku kalau boleh nk kenal2 kan dier pat korang.

Good luck in China!

It going to be a long Bro. 4 months there for attachment. Im surely gonna miss you. 1 things for sure is that i'll be renting a car to drive you anywhere when u get back bro! I'll try! Oh yea! Im trying to find a group of friends whose willing to go on a vacation to China! During December i heard its gonna be winter there. So.. anyone interested please do call me beep me if you wanna reach me. oooooh Kim Possible!

PS: Bro, I will try to achieve the four goals I set.

When you're tired,sleep.

2009-07-22T12:31:00.000-07:00

Designs for helmet/bike

When it happen it happens

When inhuman object needs to go for surgery

When I think somethings are just worth to call 'Masterpiece'

When you get to use your wireless broadband to LAN.

SGC!

Amazed+Applaudable=Applazable

2009-07-09T14:34:00.001-07:00

Megan's a MAN?

LOS ANGELES, CA – The internet has been abuzz since this Sunday’s Golden Globes ceremony, where Megan Fox jokingly remarked that she looked like a man.

When interviewed on the red carpet, she said “I look like Alan Alda in drag. I’m a tranny. I’m a man.”

At the time, reporters passed it off as a jovial attempt to cover for her nerves.

However, today she has cleared the air and officially reported: she’s really a man.

Megan Fox was born Mitchell Reed Fox in Rockwood, Tennessee. From an early age, Mitchell showed an interest in both performing and women’s clothing. When having a preacher lay hands on him did not ‘cure’ him of these interests, his parents simply put him on the pageant circuit.

By the age of 13, Mitchell had already started a career as a female child performer called ‘Megan Fox’. Making her debut on an Olsen Twins straight-to-video release, the twins have kept his secret all this time.

As a sweet 16 present, Fox’s parents offered him sexual reassignment surgery, which, given their child’s career, they’d hoped to write off as a business expense. Unfortunately laws prohibit such surgery to be done to minors.

Since then Megan has been working non-stop, and been included on many Hottest Women lists in publications around the world.

Megan, as she goes by now exclusively, also noted this Sunday how much she wants Salma Hayek’s figure. She has even scheduled surgery later this month to get it. After the two met in New York this week, Hayek offered to have a cast made of her bust so doctors can match them exactly on Megan Fox’s chest.

My point of view: I really really think all these shit is rumors. I feel for sorry for all the young boys, teenagers, man, the old dirty bastards out there. I bet they all have fantasized thinking of a whole new level of thinking. Well, we can see this in a different point of view. Maybe shes a man, but who cares its "her" parent's money and we can't do shit about it. I mean, who asked for you guys to go jerking off to her pictures and all. OR maybe this whole never meant to happen. Maybe she's being punked. Maybe this whole thing is just a scamp to bring her reputation down. Well I'm too lazy to check on the update. People say she even confessed to the media that shes a man. Then a unicorn come grazing on my imaginary lawn where the grass is orange in colour and the clown starts dancing in the rain next door.

NOW Check this cool new dance move!

May the worms eat the other worms and vanish into thin air so we all can dance in peace!